爱， 淡了

人群中哭着
我只想变成透明的颜色
我再也不会
梦或痛或心动了
我已经决定了
我已经决定了
我静静忍着
紧紧把昨天在拳心握着
而回忆越是甜
就是越伤人了
越是在手心留下
密密麻麻深深浅浅的刀割
我不是真正的快乐
我的笑只是
我穿的保护色
我决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把我的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳
这世界笑了
於是我合群的一起笑了
当生存是规则
不是我的选择
于是我含着眼泪
飘飘荡荡跌跌撞撞的走着
我不是真正的快乐
我的笑只是
我穿的保护色
我决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把我的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳
我不是真正的快乐
我的伤从不肯
完全的愈合
你站在我左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了
然后才后悔着
我不是真正的快乐
我的笑只是
我穿的保护色
我决定不恨了
也决定不爱了
把我的灵魂
关在永远锁上的躯壳
我不是真正的快乐
我的伤从不肯
完全的愈合
你站在我左侧
却像隔着银河
难道就真的抱着遗憾
一直到老了
我值得真正的快乐
我应该脱下
我穿的保护色
为什么失去了
还要被惩罚呢
能不能就让悲伤
全部结束在此刻
重新开始活着


爱， 淡了
我可以做些什么
根本感情是挽不回的
但是不忍心的这感觉
让我很矛盾
让我很伤心也很烦
不舍得对她说分手
也不会怎么开口

Haizz.....
应该怎么做才是最完美的

距离

After i start work
i feel that my family and i got a distant already
my life also be boring jor
not going work jiu at home sleep
i saw many parents very care their child
they come body glove
ask their child
'' u like jiu take lo''
''dun worry, i will pay de''
''u like it or not, like then buy la''
y i never feel this be4
y my parents din say like this to me be4
mayb my mum got say to me be4
but my dad sure no...
2day saw a father with his son
''nah.. take this la i know u like, go try la''
i dun know i work isit correct
i no money
i need money
but i also need my family
wat i have to choose
mayb u all will think money is canot buy one family back
but i need the money going to college
i dun know let my parents feel i very yi kao they
always take thier money

Tired TT

2day very tired
2day do morning sift
until 7
thn back home
just after eat jiu start help mum do tang yuan jor
9k leh
body pain
hand pain
leg pain
who can help me
yesterday come jor a new staff
is a girl
call Fiona
also 17
waiting SPM result too
study in cochrane
pure science study
same class with carmen sam
a beautiful girl
she very quite
dun very like to talk
just smile smile
mayb scare to talk with us gua
2moro morning sift again
sien leh
dun wan write jor
very tired ar
wan go oi oi jor

2Day off day

2day off day
now i onli know working is very tired
i not very like working de feel
coz leg very pain
now already december already
next year alreay 18 jor
OLD LOL...
ow working at Jusco Maluri geh Body Glove
now BIG seoson
many customer o
2day go MPAJ play badminton with fren
karfoo and jia tern quarrel at there
very funny o
thn back to karfoo house for bath
thn go swimming
now already very tired oo
wan oi oi jor